I finished the last bit of the sparkling wine

The bottle we opened together

I finished Gossip Girl

The DVDs I bought to watch with you

I finished my day

Thinking of you and the way you laugh and smile

I smoked the last cigarette

The one you would smoke with me all night long

I cooked noodle

‘Cos that was always your favourite and I would like to prepare for you on a special occasion

I stopped checking on what you are doing

And from that I know I am not going to hurt myself no more

I didn’t view the last two text messages you sent to me lately tonight

I was so terrified that once I touch my cell phone my heart will break into pieces again

I started to read the book you left behind at my apartment

I was browsing it without even having a purpose on finishing it

I know you loved that book so much and were going to buy the brand new English version of it

And when I turned over the pages I can feel your warmth because your fingers have touched on them

I was in the jacket I bought for you the whole night

The scent from your body left on and I felt so intimacy from wearing it

I filled my bathtub with the most luxurious foaming lotion and flavored salt

The smell of that was fascinating but still not attractive enough for me to dip my toe into

I felt my fingertip touching the bubbles from the bath

Begin to picture in my mind again the last shower we had together

I miss all these times your arms was around me

Now I am surrounded by sorrows and sadness feeling no connection with you tonight

I kept wondering how many break-ups each couple has experienced before ended up being together forever

That’s why I figured out you loved me so much as you had never let me let you out

I finally realized that love was about no matter what mistakes has the other person made he’d has to be forgiven

By saying that I forgave myself being jealous of those bitches around you and I was childish all the time as well

I want to skip all the processes reach the end of the story directly and find out what happens then

However I decided to move on within as I will never let the fears take my moves

I looked out of the window and there wasn’t a moon tonight

I told it to hide away so that I can show some of my dark sides to you

I found out our love is not fading away but appears to have more strength in it

Darling I am handing it over to you again so will you please hold it tight